day 19 of hope

by admin on October 19, 2014

despair

Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God;
For I shall yet praise Him,
The help of my countenance and my God. Psalm 42.11

His older brother and sister called him the “golden boy”, born seven years after the birth of my second child, he made a big arrival. Almost ten pounds and nearly two feet long – this “baby” joined our family when I didn’t even know how badly I needed hope (another story for another time). Eleven years after his debut, his stepfather and I decided we needed a new, wholesome environment and moved to the mountains of North Carolina to an extremely rural setting. My other two children were young adults and opted to stay in South Florida.

Life was great. It was simple. We were learning to be pioneers on a new frontier. We gardened. We raised dairy goats. My husband blacksmithed. We returned to church and I re-up’d in God’s band of “all-in” believers. I was confident that child number three was not going to experiment with the world’s temptations.

Then eleventh grade happened. A drivers license. A secondhand car. A part-time job. Bloodshot eyes. Munchies. Stupid laughter.

The next year, his senior year, this Beta Club member, Honor Roll student was in jeopardy of being eligible for graduation.

What?

I did it all. I went to the Principal. I called the school when I found out he was skipping. I took the car keys. I threatened. I talked.

One day I was so overwhelmed and in such despair, I took a “mental health” day from the office. I stayed home and played a dvd called The Breath of God, a compilation of scripture readings with a very comforting musical background. Today’s scripture was being quoted with such intensity, passion, and conviction that it melted me to a puddle of tears. I sat on the floor, replaying this scripture over and over again.

As it played, my HOPE began to build and I began to pray out-loud, bold prayers.

I grabbed some olive oil and ran upstairs to number 3’s bedroom and I began to anoint and pray over everything in there.

His pillow. His stereo. His clothing. His desk. Everything was anointed and consecrated.

As I walked out of that bedroom, I took my hand and slapped the trim above his door. To this day, an oily fingerprint lingers.

The “golden boy” did graduate and is soon to be 37 years old. I’m waiting for him to re-up and I’m confident he will, because my God finishes what He begins.

I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in Truth. 3 John 4

Rejoicing in HOPE until next time.

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day 18 of hope

by admin on October 18, 2014

WEARY

You are wearied in the length of your way;
Yet you did not say, ‘There is no hope.’
You have found the life of your hand;
Therefore you were not grieved. Isaiah 57:10

Have you ever wanted something so badly it hurt?

I have.

Last year I began to put feet to a desire I had had for a long time – I wanted a house on the water. Any water, a big pond would’ve worked! One day I was doing a Google search of North Carolina lakes and a pop-up appeared on my screen of a house for sale with 12 acres and a 5 acre pond. The house was located about one hour from our daughter’s. I honestly thought it was a God-thing. Why else would this perfect place just pop-up in front of my eyes? I called the realtor. We set up a time to go see it.

We went and it was everything I hoped for. It was PERFECT! Even hubs liked it. So perfect in fact that we made an offer, contingent on the sale of our mountain home with 14+ acres!

I just knew that I had found our next season of LIFE.

I could picture us living there – I could see two Adirondack chairs out by the dock, our Outrigger sailing across the glistening pond.  I mean, I had it down…

That was on a Sonday. On Monday we were home and we had a local realtor come to our home to list it. He and my husband walked the property, toured the house, the woodshop, and the outbuildings. Then, he delivered the most hopeless report. “I’m afraid in this current real estate market you will have to give your house away – there are no buyers that will pay what the property is worth – everyone is looking for a deal.”

He told us there was no hope.

I was devastated.

I asked the Lord, “What is this all about?”

I felt sad, mad, hopeless, and wearied by the whole process.

I eventually got over it and got my hope back – I’d like to tell you that we ended up getting the pond house and everything worked out – but it didn’t.

I do trust God enough to know that He has a plan for us and He also knows my desire to live on water, so I place my hand in His and let Him lead the way.

Rejoicing in HOPE until next time…

P.S. (I totally took this scripture out of context and for that I apologize, but the point is this: one can be wearied, tired, disappointed, and still regain one’s hope.)

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