Kate said could
Weird word prompt, right?
Shoulda – coulda – woulda
How does one even write on “could”? I’m baffled. So, I’ll ramble.
What could I have done?
I remember a hundred years ago when my first husband dropped the bomb on me and our three children that he was having an affair and was pretty sure he loved her.
You begin to beat yourself up
What could I have done differently? What could I have said? What could I have been better at? What could I do to win him back?
It’s fruitless banter
I knew I was a good wife and Mom. I knew I put him first above all else. I loved him and was faithful to him.
I could not have done anything differently.
God showered grace
He showered grace upon me and my littles. And, what did I do? Got mad at Him and ran in the opposite direction for many years.
Now I know
That God was so merciful to me back then and ever since then. He has blessed me and my life.
I will not live in coulda – shoulda – woulda mode. I am blessed and live with an overload of gratefulness.
That’s the very best could I can choose!
But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good…Genesis 50.20
Take that Satan….you thought you could but you didn’t.